My career has ended due to General Motors sending so much outsourcing. I have been unemployed for over nine months and even unemployment has run out. We cant survive on my wifes salary alone. A month from now, unless something happens soon, we wont hae enough to pay our rent and bills and eat. There is very little that is worse than failing your family. My wife is working and doing her part. I am the one who cant find work even at the local video store. In a few months my step-daughter will be graduating and I am afraid we wont be able to even giver her a party. I could rant and rave about all of the stress I am feeling right now enough to fill a novel. The simple fact is, I cant find work and without money we cant survive. We already filed bankrupcy and lost a house last year because of my failing career. If we lose the apartment, we have nowhere else to go.

     As ashamed as I am, I have turned to begging on-line. Whether it works or not will be left up to God, for I am still desperately trying to keep my faith in him. If anyone can help, please do so and visit my webpage. Even if you cant help, you might still want to visit it. I have a lot of humorous cartoons, charactures, jokes and poems. All but the jokes are my own creation. If you just need to be cheered up, you might find it there.
Kenja's World

I feel that since I have asked for help, it is only right to offer help as well. Though I cannot afford to help anyone finacially, maybe there are other ways to help. I am a Christian, though not perfect. I have my flaws as does every Christian. We are still human. If someone needs someone to share there problems with, I would be glad to hear them. Or read them I guess in this case. lol If I give advice it will only be if I believe it is good advice. Understand though, I am a Christian and an engineer. I do not however have any schooling as a psychologist. :o)

If someone just needs something to make them laugh, they could check out my webpage. I have a small selection of cartoons I created called "Drawing a Blank". I once had hopes of getting syndicated but they all turned me down even though I still believe they are better than some I see in the papers. I have some pages of jokes as well, but be warned the jokes are not exactly christian humor. Not even close. I have plans in the future to rearrange the jokes and seperate the dirtier ones from the clean ones so people will have a choice in the matter. I also have some poems. A few are good and clean. Most are from my back-sliding days and are quite demented.
Kenja's World

I am a born again Christian. I have walked away and found my way back with more faith than I have ever had before. Admittedly I do not go to church though. I do so want to but I cant seem to keep going. My wife, though she believes in God, was hurt by a church once and doesnt go. It is so hard to go every week alone.

Sadly, I am at my faiths edge right now. In the three and a half years I have been married, I have been laid off four times, my wife went through a hurt back for a while and didnt work, my wife had a miss-carriage, and we have filed bankrupcy and lost our house. Now I cant find another job yet and unemployment has run out. We simply cannot survive on my wifes income alone. Since we have one running car between us, I am limitted to where I can find a job. I want to believe God will pull us out of this mess. He has every time before when our backs were up against the wall. This time though feels so much worse. I fear that maybe he will decide not to help us this time for some reason.

My dream would to become an established author. I am slowly working on my third novel right now, though it is hard to get into it with all of the stress. The first two were not good enough, but I have seen a lot of improvement between the two. I believe my third will be good enough once I am done. Yet this is a dream for the future. Even if a get a novel sold, it will be a couple more books before I make enough to make a career of it. Right now it is more important to find a job.