Faithsedge

I am a born again Christian. I have walked away and found my way back with more faith than I have ever had before. Admittedly I do not go to church though. I do so want to but I cant seem to keep going. My wife, though she believes in God, was hurt by a church once and doesnt go. It is so hard to go every week alone.

Sadly, I am at my faiths edge right now. In the three and a half years I have been married, I have been laid off four times, my wife went through a hurt back for a while and didnt work, my wife had a miss-carriage, and we have filed bankrupcy and lost our house. Now I cant find another job yet and unemployment has run out. We simply cannot survive on my wifes income alone. Since we have one running car between us, I am limitted to where I can find a job. I want to believe God will pull us out of this mess. He has every time before when our backs were up against the wall. This time though feels so much worse. I fear that maybe he will decide not to help us this time for some reason.

My dream would to become an established author. I am slowly working on my third novel right now, though it is hard to get into it with all of the stress. The first two were not good enough, but I have seen a lot of improvement between the two. I believe my third will be good enough once I am done. Yet this is a dream for the future. Even if a get a novel sold, it will be a couple more books before I make enough to make a career of it. Right now it is more important to find a job.